Emergence & Quilt Therapy
I’m not feeling creative right now. So, what do I do (because obviously I want to sew!) The answer is dive into a kit by one of my favorite fabric and pattern designers of all time – Joanna Figueroa at Fig Tree & Co. I absolutely could not resist this Halloween Spools quilt kit. I want to own this quilt as much as I want to make it, so it’s perfect!
Well now that I’ve started on a happy note, let me tell you why I’m not feeling creative right now. I did have a big spurt of creativity this year which led to me making the butterflies quilt and creating the pattern for it. After mulling over the theme of butterflies that I’ve been focused on all year, I believe I finally realize why it was so much on my mind, and part of my creative psyche. My lovely, sweet, beautiful mama passed away a few weeks ago.
I see now that I’m entering a new phase of my life, and she too is a new creation. I’ve cried so many tears; I cannot believe that a human can cry that much. Yes, she lived a wonderful and long life – but I miss her so much. While I don’t want to dwell on the sadness, I do see that my heart was being prepared for this new, different phase. Isn’t it wonderful how the creative process of quilting can turn what is on our hearts and minds into a textile treasure. Here is a photo I saw on Pinterest that captures that sentiment.
So I’m hurting. But quilting helps. Soooo very many people have told me the same thing: “You’ll never really get over losing your mom, but it will get better.”, and I believe them.